Yesterday I took Lydia to a hearing appointment. She has mild hearing loss and uses hearing aids. For the last few months we've had a break from appointments, but this month, there is three, all in different places. Yesterday was the first one, at a place I've never been before. But it turned out to be a waste of time. The audiologist had a look in Lydia's ears and told me she couldn't do the hearing test because of all the wax. She said to make an appointment to get her ears cleaned out and then come back again. So now five appointments instead of three! I was a little annoyed, especially because I already knew beforehand that Lydia has wax in her ears-- she always does! But as I thought about it more, I felt uncomfortable about booking the appointment. It's complicated to explain, but Lydia has never had her ears cleaned out before in spite of all the wax. She was going to get put to sleep once in hospital to get them cleaned out, but they thought it was too risky. Also, this audiologist knows nothing about Lydia or her history. So I'm not sure I can just go get her ears cleaned out. When I told my husband in the evening, he had the same question mark. He told me to find out whether she should or not. Also, since one of the upcoming appointments is with the hearing people she usually goes to, I'm not sure whether this other hearing test is necessary or not. So lots of questions, but getting an answer is often complicated too. You can't just ring up the hospital and speak to the right person. So I started to feel stressed by it all. Then I realized I should pray about it. Why was it hours later I realized that?
I did have an email address from an audiologist who knows Lydia, so I sent her an email with my questions and concerns. Hopefully I will get an answer!
But it made me realize that there are a lot of things that I don't pray about, and yet they bother me and affect me.
Somehow praying about little things can seem unnecessary or insignificant.
Praying about big things can seem hopeless. I get upset easily about bad things that are happening in the world, or the knowledge of suffering people. Or the overwhelming amount of people who don't know Christ.
And yet I often just pray about the medium sized problems. But all of those things bother me.
Last night I was reminded of these two verses.
Casting ALL your care upon Him; for he careth for you. 1 Peter 5:7
Be anxious for NOTHING; but in EVERYTHING by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known unto God. Philippians 4:6
If something is big enough to bother us, it's big enough to pray about. if something seems overwhelming hopeless, it is not bigger than God.
No problem is too big or too small to pray about.
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