In the end out of desperation we shut our door and let her cry it out. After that she didn't wake up again, but now I couldn't sleep. I also had a bit of an upset stomach which didn't help matters. In the end I went out to the lounge, made a milo and read a book! I eventually went back to bed and got a bit more sleep.
The next day Hannah and I were both very tired. I had an appointment at 9:30 which was in the middle of Esther's sleep time. So Esther turned out to be grumpy, too.
I had to get some groceries after lunch. Usually Hannah loves shopping but not this day. She fussed and cried. Every time I stopped the trolley to get something she fussed loudly and tried to push the trolley by herself. She had never been like that shopping before. Esther wasn't happy and I just felt like going to bed.
When I got home I put the girls to bed but Hannah wouldn't sleep even though she desperately needed it.
While I was cooking dinner, I put the girls with toys in Esther's room, so they wouldn't fuss at my feet, but tonight Esther just screamed instead of playing.
After dinner a babysitter was coming to put the girls to bed while we went to visit a family. The last thing I felt like doing was to go visiting!
My husband was about to arrive home and I was ready to complain to him about my horrible day. But then I had a thought, Were there no blessings today?
I have a blessings notebook and every night I write down a few blessings from the day. So I thought ,Is there nothing I can write down tonight?
As I thought about that question I started counting my blessings.
1) I got a nice card in the mail.
2) I met my new midwife who was very nice.
3) I got my shopping done in spite of everything!
4) Esther behaved pretty well at my appointment even though she was tired.
5) When Hannah was crying at the supermarket, somebody I knew came up, asked her what was wrong and gave her a big hug!
6) I got a haircut.
7) I got an email with good news.
Thinking about my blessings completely changed my state of mind. I couldn't believe how many blessings I actually had! All I could see before was my trials.
When my husband arrived home I could greet him with a smile!
Blessings brighten when you count them!